Monday, October 03, 2011

a letter to my Ex

It's going to be the New Chapter of my life and I want to start that chapter with healing. I haven't gone out to meet my EX girlfriend yet but I wrote her a letter. I hope she gets to read it but it's more like a letter that marks the beginning for me. I have finally come to terms with my long love affair. And I know now that my EX wasn't the one for me. I've finally let go.  


It was a painful relationship. More painful than anything I've ever experienced. But I learned a lot from it. I learned that when it's not the right relationship, it just isn't the right relationship. 


Dear ex girlfriend , 


I'm sorry if you think that I am selfish. I hope you can see what is in my heart. I wish you could read my thoughts and my heart. But you can't. You never have. I guess I keep calling you because I want to know if you've have moved on. I also want some closure between us. Sometimes, I do wish we could be together again. The days we have spent together was one of the defining moments on my life. It changed me in ways I can never fully grasp yet.  


I might not know how to respect you, I might not be able to treat you the way you should be treated, I might not know how to control my anger when I am mad, I might not know how to trust you, I might not know how to used a proper languages. But love, I am pretty sure that there would be none for the guys out there that I can do exactly I did and feel right now. I will keep trying to give you the best as you deserve. I miss you and I'm sorry for using improper words. Ich liebe Dich, Ti amo tantissimo, Te quiero, Jag älskar dig, Je t'aime, Te sakam, Naan unnai kadalikiren, Tá grá agam duit, Szeretlek, Minä rakastan sinua, Miluji tě, Ik hou van jou, Mai tumse pyar karathi hun, Saranghae, Aishiteru, Ko kicinio, Volim te, Aku cinta kamu, I love you. Those words keep playing in my mind. 


kau tahu tak aku menangis buat surat ni ? kau tahu tak apa aku rasa sekarang ? kau tahu tak betapa sakitnya hati aku ni ? kau tahu ? kau tak tahu kan ? aku sayang kau . sampai mati aku sayang kau ! sumpah , aku tak penah rasa ada org sayang aku mcm ni . Ingat tak aku penah cakap kalau kita jadi mcm kaklea dgn dyra ? aku tak mintak semua ni , aku taknak ! aku lepaskan kau pergi sbb kau deserve org yang lebih baik dari aku . Aku nak kau belajar hidup tanpa aku , nnt kalau aku mati , siapa nak temankan kau ? aku tahu aku jahat , aku tak patut buat benda ni . Surat ni menggambarkan sejauh mana sayang aku kt kau , sedalam mana cinta aku kt kau . Aku tak kesah org panggil aku lessy sbb aku betol-2 syg kau . Maafkan segala dosa aku , halalkan kenangan pahit manis kita . Akan ku sebut namamu disetiap doaku . 


aku harap kita masih boleh jadi mcm dulu , but not now . Aku banyak problem , hari hari aku suram , aku sedih all the time , aku tak happy . Hati aku sakit . Aku lemah . Maafkan aku . mummy sayang daddy sangat sangat 


Aku doakan kau bahagia . Selamat tinggal baby *Nur Syahirah bt Zainal Abidin 

Friday, August 05, 2011

Nur Syahirah bt Zainal Abidin


Kehadapan si gemok yang ku cintai :                      


saya sayang awak
saya cinta awak
saya rindu awak
saya rindu suara awak
saya rindu bebelan awak
saya rindu nak on call dgn awak
saya rindu nak begaduh dgn awak
saya rindu nak marah awak
saya rindu nak panggil awak gemok
rindu nak webkem dgn awak
rindu nak peluk awak
rindu nak kiss awak
rindu nak pok pok awak
rindu montot gebu awak :p
rindu nak dgr suara awak nangis
saya rindu nak merindui awak :D
jangan tinggal saya 
jangan gatal dgn org lain
jangan sedih sedih
jangan luka kan hati saya
jangan pernah selingkuh
jangan titiskan air mata awak
jangan hati tisu sangat
i love you Isya 


Sunday, July 17, 2011

i miss you

izzati 

anis 

dawina

ecah

intan

fai

i miss you guys so much :(

Friday, May 20, 2011

undur diri

Dengan ini saya , Shaa Amir mengundurkan diri buat seketika daripada Facebook , Youtube dan Blog untuk beberapa minggu kerana saya mengalami perubahan masa yang sangat perit . Terima kasih . Rindu rindulah saya :)












love - Shaa Amir

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Friday, May 06, 2011

5 May 2011


Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
happy birthday Nur Syahida Syawatie
Happy birthday to you


  • may god bless you always . amin
  • semoga shaa happy happy selalu
  • make mak and abah proud of you
  • make everybody proud of you
  • semoga berjaya menempuh liku liku hidup 

Sunday, May 01, 2011

counting

bila smapai je bulan MAY aku akan start counting . ngeee . terus counting dan counting . counting apa ? ehem counting my BIRTHDAY laa . sempena birthday aku hari KHAMIS ni 5 may <-- aku capslock hari khamis tuu. HAHA . ckp kt mak , nak kek choc yg kawan dia buat tapi mak kata kek tu besaq sgt takut tak habeh makan . tapi kek tu sedap mak :( tak kiraaaa nak jugakk even apa pun tejadi . pehliss pehliss . hehe . mak cakap nak ajak pegi shoping suruh pilih hadiah birthday sndiri . awwww nak Iphone 4 boleh ? hahaks . mau kena lempang akuu mintak Iphone . heh . okay peeps , counting okay sampai hari KHAMIS ni . muwah . sayanggg hampa